The Heart of Life

I wish I had some sort of musical talent. I believe that would be a fun life to lead. Exciting and new everyday, with people who feel some deep connection with what you've done.

I realized that I really want to get back into sports. They were always a huge part of my life and now I feel like that is dwindling. I don't even care what sport it is, I just want to be active. Everyone seems like they're growing up so fast; they don't have the time or the passion to run around and get sweaty or dirty. That isn't necessarily a bad thing, I just feel like I'm in a field by myself holding a baseball glove, a football, and a frisbee, waiting for something to happen. But, we did get a couple football games going over break and I had an incredible time. We also had a LAN, and we just played video games for hours. It really felt like we were all in touch with our childhood that day. I miss that sometimes, but I think some of the tradeoffs are worth it.

Lately my sleep schedule has been vampiric. You pull an all-nighter one night and your entire schedule is fucked from there on out. This is especially inconvenient for finals week; and trying to study at 4am while your roommate is alseep is a challenge. However, I do some of my best writing at these hours. Something about solitude, a couple episodes of Scrubs, and John Mayer really gets my mind moving in all kinds of directions. I can't wait to start writing or producing or editting...well, anything really. It's so exciting and it's really the only career I could see myself giving my all everyday for the rest of my life. That kind of enthusiasm alone has me excited to see what I can do. I really want a video camera for Christmas/my birthday. I can't even imagine all the possibilities...

Anyways, if you just want to skip down here, the main point of this post is I love: sports, video games, and writing. I wish: I was a musician; I could sleep like a normal person. I want: a videocamera.